More and more, I realize that I am abstaining from anger. I see things that could ignite a sense of indignation, frustration, or disdain. I utter a quick "nope" and go about my day. Perusing the news and even scrolling social media, I see things that scream of anger, and I KNOW I have no desire to be angry with you. I wish I had unlocked this ability earlier in life. It never stuck, though. I knew how to be angry before anything else. No one told us the dangers of perpetual anger back then. Menopause is really giving me the slowdown needed to let the things that don't matter fall away.
I am excited to find my bliss, and I plan to capture my joy, as my dearest sister imparted. I won't limit it to any particular aspect of life. I will follow the threads along my life's path peacefully. Joy is as revolutionary as our very existence and should not be discounted or idolized. There is no way to avoid the emotions of life. Feelings of disappointment, grief, hope, fear, and so on are natural. Allowing them to set up shop and feed off of you is not natural. We have become conditioned to this aberration.
I poured a lot of contemplative energy into this pattern, especially the yarn choice. I don't often go for acrylic yarn because of the sweaty hand factor, but this particular Lion Brand Bonbon mini set is perfect for a good-size neck-warming cowl. All of the colorways for Bonbon are vibrant and have the cutest names. It was a feel-good project to combat the dreariness of the dry season.
How are you in these ever-changing times?
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